TILLY Gray won’t be beating herself up about her performances at Glasgow 2014, admitting a year of instability was always going to take its toll.
The 22-year-old has had three changes of coach this past season – upheavals from Loughborough to Swansea and then Bath proving far from ideal.
And on top of that a change in rules dictated she could no longer compete for Wales at these Commonwealth Games, forcing her to switch nationalities.
Gray’s final appearance in the pool came in the heats of the women’s 200m butterfly – a time of 2:14.68 minutes not good enough for the final.
But after giving everything she had at the Tollcross International Swimming Centre, Gray insists she won’t be hung up on her failures for too long.
“It was very far off my best and I am pretty gutted with the time and the fact that I didn’t get myself through into the final,” she said.
“This year has been really tough, I have had to move a couple of times and with the change of nationality too I was just so exhausted.
“I tried to get myself in the best place possible before the championships, tried to sort my head out but it just wasn’t quick enough for a morning swim.
“I gave it everything but my legs were heavy and it just wasn’t there. It is upsetting because I wanted to do the nation proud but unfortunately something wasn’t right.
“I am going to go back and reflect. I am upset but I am not beating myself up as I know I have done as much as I can.”
Gray will return to Bath looking to rectify the wrongs that have plagued her during the Games but she insists even being involved was a success.
“I think I have a lot of things to look at and I’ll have to rationalise everything because there is no point in reacting straight away,” she added.
“It is such an achievement to be here and I have had a great time, it was just a shame I couldn’t deliver.”
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